At The Lake

Beautiful lake that the river empties into. It's a fun place for us, you can swim, play in the water, We don't care as long as you don't drown.

*Runs to the lake and takes in the view*
Wow, this is sooo amazing... I wonder where Bane is...
*Sits down and admires her surroundings.*

-walks in up to her back-

Ahhhhh.... this realieves the pressure on my back so.....


I'm like my own solar system!

I can't wait for them to arrive....-smiles fondly-

Wonder where my Cy is?

Hello! And yes, it looks as if the pups will be coming soon.
Congrats to both you and Cy.

*Smiles at Xan and continues to look out over the lake*

Oh thank you!

How Bane and you?

-looks around and fish swimming around her- Oooooh! Sushi! -laughs-

Here Fishy fishy! -laughs again-

*tries to sumberge oneself but fails because she is buoant* Darn it!

Nerrrrrrrrrr.... -groans and tries to swim deeper- I can swim a little bit.....

Bane and I are doing well thank you.
*chuckles at Xan's attempts to swim*
Hmm... Maybe you should try to stick to land until the pups are born.
*still chuckling*

-sighs- I suppose you are right....

*claws back to shore* Gah.....

-crawls onto solid land- No... more... deep... swimming.....


*lies down* Sleepy.... ahhh.... soft grass.... -shuts eyes-

wow Xarana.. Your due like in a couple days...
you should just sleep for now.
Don't get to stressed.

uh..... -heaves herself up- I should go to my den.....


Anyone want to come? I could use company.... -smiles-


And also just in case I go into labor -laughs and walks to her and cy's den-

I'll accompany you.
*Starts to help Xan to her den*
Where is Cy?

*comes down to the lake*
*plops down by water*
*is the mirror version of Zora in the clouds*
What am I?
A killer?
A monster?

*quietly pads in and lies down besides Bane*
If that's all your wondering I can tell you.
You are neither.
You are a protector.
But most of all, you are my love.
*licks him*
If ever you are troubled by those thoughts, just think of your love for me.
No monster could love like that.

*doesn't look at her*
Are you sure?
I don't know what I am.
Azsh a protector of what?
*looks at water*
You saw my true colors.
Do you understand the need I feel for that?

I know I'm sure. I've never felt surer about something.
Please look at me, and listen!
A monster wouldn't injure himself to help a pup.
But you did. You protected Snowfire.
And what happend that night.
That wasn't your true colors.
Far from it...
The true you is the you that I see whenever I look into your loving eyes.
What was the killer wasn't you. It's like.. like a sickness.
And there is a cure.

*looks at her*
Maybe it is a sickness.
It is really all I have ever known.
But I need it.
It is like a drug and I need it.
*looks back at water*
I saved Snowfire becasue he reminded me of what I was when I was a pup.
Not for him for me.
I wanted to see him live. He is a young me Azsharel. I want to see me like I should have been.

But you still saved him.
It matters not what the intentions were.
*Nuzzles him*
And I know how to cure your sickness.
If you say it's like a drug for you, why don't you think of me as a better drug?
*Stares at him intently*
We can get through this. I know we can.

What is the cure?
Tell me so I know.
*looks at her with eyes filled with sorrow*
Azsharel you are my light.
My best friend and love.
*goes back to looking at water*
How much do you know about me?

The cure... is love.
You need to let it over come your need to kill.
It's hard, I know. But I shall do everything to help you.
I love you with all of my heart.
*looks into the water so her reflection is next to Banes*
I know that you are brave, and loving.
I know that you have a great spirit, even though sometimes you think you are bad.
I know that you are mine. And nothing can change that.

*looks at relfection*
I meant about my past.
How much do you know about that?
*refection doesn't show Azsh but his mother*
*his father is on his other side, a bloodpaw*
Why must you remid me of what I am?
I'm not you.
I never will be you.

*looks at him curiously*
Not much... I don't think you ever felt it right to tell me.
But I am willing to listen. *smiles comfortingly*

No I never did feel right but now I do.

Azsh you have to see things from my view. When I was a pup the world was diffrent. We palyed untill the sun set.
It was wonderful yet never complet. There was always that one thing missing. Blood. Our fathers knew how to control it. They were amazing. Blood was something we wanted as a pup.

When I was older My father took me out on my first run. That was one of the best days of my life. I was free then. The blood became me. I went with my dad. I had control then. Then I lost it. One night the whole pack lost it. We lost control and killed a whole pack. Kyla's old pack. I was in the room with her and her father and Zora. I killed her father.

Rain was our weakness. Rain washed away the blood. Showed us our true colors. Red was one of them. As I grew older I thought it was just a part of me. Being a bloodpaw. I was use to it and saw nothing wrong. When I saw Kyla again everything changed.

*listens quietly until he is finished*
Thank you for sharing that with me.
You must be in such pain carrying that guilt on your shoulders.
But as you said. You lost it.
It was an accident. What killed the pack wasn't the wolves themselves.
It was the lust.
And lust is hard to deal with. Even the strongest of creatures give in.
But there is a way to overcome it.

Lust.
That is a funny way to put it.
But it is true.
*stands up*
Come with me. I want to show you something.
*goes into the lake swimming to the other side*

Alright.
*gets up and heads into the pool*
What is it? Or is it a surprise?

Just follow me.
*goes to edge and claws way out*
I have something you need to see